junior year....
(thought to have found actual happiness...day dreaming of nathan and visiting
him in pensylvania... i had never in my life felt such happiness.....just the thought of him left a smile on my face....that
was before he left me....and brought about such a familiar feeling....the empty feeling of abandonment)
show not tell
that lovely winter
I woke up in the arms of my lover
the warmth of his body pulsed through
my veins. I sat up on the icy sheets
and set my feet on the smooth
wooden floor the sudden shock of
cold rose up my body and up my spine
a slight smile spread over my lips
I walked down the stairs
my left arm gripped the black railing
as I braced myself as I walked
I walked up to the glass door
which sheild the room from the snow
that fell outside I watched the
snow twirl and spin as it fell to the
ground. Pressed my hand against the glass
and a white fog began to appear around
the out line of my hand.... I looked at
the pure white outside... seem to
be heaven... I opened the door and
the icy breezy came in blowing
little specs of snow flakes inside
that quickly melted on the wooden floors...
the little whisps of wind toyed
with my hair and flickered my night gown
I stepped outside my feet touching
the freezing cement floors which
had a thin layer of ice that melted
around my feet i sat down
and watched all the beauties of
winter... I looked at the outside
world which seemed to be pure white
pure nothingness... I hear the door behind me
close, and silky warm arms wrap around
my icy skin... feel his chin dig slightly
into the crook of my neck...
feel the warmth yeet again rush through
my veins, that beautiful burning warmth...
feel alive feel free in his arms
feel the warm tears flow down my cheeks.
and trickle down my lips taste the
salty tears... feel it drip on my wrists
and slightly tickle my skin as it falls
to the ground. such a perfect morning
I think... such a perfect day...
